Waiting..
people spend most of their lives waiting for the ones they love.
& i'm no exception..
i'm always waiting.. for the same one.
it's so tiring.
but no matter how long it takes, i'll wait,
for there's no one who makes me feel the same way i do for you.
i can't help being easily affected by the things that are happening arnd me.
especially if they involve the ones i love..
me being all emotional and so easily affected, is just me.
i can't help it.
maybe i'm not yet ready/fit to fall in love..
for the very first time i fall, i fall for someone like him.
someone whom i may never get to know his true feelings,his thoughts, everything..
Someone XXXX XXX XXXXX XXXXX.
i wanna thank lesley for keepin me accompany till the late morning last night,
well, by lecturing me and all.
your efforts are not wasted, as it made me think, yet again, bout all these stuff.
didn't had a good night's sleep last night.
it was kinda hard to after what happened last night.
in fact, it was horrible, i slept at 5, woke up at 10.47.
and i woke up thinking bout last night, it was shit.
i just lay in bed thinking, thinking bout all, everything that happened.
what lesley said does make sense..
some hurt though.
like i said, my loving him is something he'll never know.
mannnn having a fren this stupid like me really get's on your nerves doesn't it?
i'm thinking if i have a fren like me, i'll feel very beik chek
[[LOL idk how to spell that]].
here i am, sitting in front of the com at 1.11pm, on a saturday afternoon.
thinking, self-examining, if there's something wrong with me. lol.
what exactly am i doing right, what am i doing wrong.
everything i guess.
i'm not in the mood to go anywhere,
but there's the bbq steamboat dinner tonight with the sim gang.
i wanna go, however, i can't go feeling like this..
or maybe i should go, to keep my mind occupied with other stuff besides him.
Sigh.. idk.. should i?
we'll see...
i feel that all my energy has been drained out of me..
all i wanna do is to stay in bed.
i wanna sleep, sleep for a long long time.
and when i open my eyes again, i'll forget all the shit stuff.
i'll wake up to a brand new me, a whole new world.
yeah, like real.
i feeel, horrible.
bLah~
bLeah~
i'm outta here.
goodbye.
believe in me, i'll be there.
oppa chakam, shiippaaL won later, nah, mi gyuk aeh soh ka yeo.
ki da ri jan nah yeo, arahsoh oppa?
saranghaeyo<3