today's the official 2nd worst day of my life.
the worst day of my life. was worst than this.
maybe not. well, almost the same. whatever.
i'm feeling so down and out.
i'm feeling so freakin sad.
i feel like as if a part of me has dieded/left me.
i didn't expect this to happen.
much less read it.
i. am. so. shocked.
so hurt.
so sad.
i hate this feeling.
anybody to comfort me?
its 2.30am now.
2.30am.
2am.
oh how i hate 2am.
i am in a state of numbness.
i feel so tired.
i hate this.
i hate everything.
i hate my life.
i wish i've never know that person.
never met that person.
never knew that person ever existed.
because of that person.
my life's all topsey turvey.
my life's all miserable.
all fucked up.
i feel so tired.
i just wanna forget bout everything.
forget how we met.
forget how we knew each other.
i thought there was something special goin on between us.
everything. seemed to be all made up.
all thought up by me.
like it never happened at all.
i just wanna have a good night's sleep, to be able to wake up feelin all bright and good to start off the day.
if i can choose.
would i wan to still meet you?
or would i choose never to have known that you ever exist.
maybe my life will be better then now.
this whole thing sucks.
just go away.
go to the states.
go.
i dont wan to see you again.
you're making me feel so shitty.
and omfg how much i hate this feeling.
someone. help.
i'm suffocating here.